You are stronger than you think

     I am an introvert and I was accepted into Cal State LA in 2018. None of my friends back in High School were accepted into this school, so basically I have to start from the bottom of the food chain again, alone. Well, I wasn't really alone, I had my girlfriend who was always there to back me up and support me although she doesn't come to Cal State LA. However, the school was more stressful than I thought, I lived in the dorms and I just couldn't find my social spot and I couldn't fit in. As a result, I became very stressed out and impatient. The 2nd semester came I maintained my 4.0 GPA but I don't have a single friend, even my dormmates are just someone I say "hi" to and never have a conversation with. I texted with my girlfriend and she is the only one I really have a conversation with. Midway through the 2nd semester our relationship went downhills, she found someone who was more supportive and attractive than I was, so she broke me off through text. There goes the only person who supported me through college, I was completely alone and time goes on, stress will pile up, no one will care if you break up at a bad time or not. It took a toll on my mental health, I went to the Student Health Center desperately looking for help as I felt suicidal, I was later diagnosed with mild depression.
     Napping was my way of escaping reality, living with guilt, stress, and anger with no friends to talk to I could feel I myself slowly going crazy every day. My grades dropped significantly too, and the only thing that kept me sane was my dream of becoming a nurse. I tried to bring up my grades days later, I went to Professor's office hours for additional questions, and even if I didn't have questions I would go and just talk to them. I know I needed that human connection with someone and it doesn't matter who, I just needed someone who was willing to talk to me. A month later, I was able to bring my grades back up to a reasonable standard with my Professors' guidance. I was also forced to step out of my comfort zone and start talking to other people just for the human connection. Surprisingly, I manage to make good friends towards the end of the school year, we studied, ate, and learned together. I actually felt alive and I felt I mattered again.
     So please, even if you are at the rock bottom. Remember things can't get any worse, it can only go up from now. You are stronger than you think, grasp onto your dream tightly, it will guide you on to the right path again if you fell out of the track like me.